It’s 3:05 a.m., and I’m getting pretty hungry. Feel kind of bad today, didn’t workout or anything, I also ate quite a bit. I blame it on taco night. Oh well, tomorrow’s another day, start fresh again. Wake up early, eat breakfast, violin private lesson, go see if I still have my job, and just relax.

- Good mood food !: Recipe "Sesame Chicken Salad" ›


(I posted this photo for a while ago and I remember someone was asking for the recipe! Here you go, found it! :)


2 cubed poached chicken breasts or about 2 cups leftover roasted chicken
3 tablespoons mayonnaise
1/2 teaspoon sesame oil
1 1/2 teaspoon toasted sesame seeds
1 stalk…

making that tonight. because I need more deliciousness in my life.

That is a cookies and cream protein shake. Notice, it looks nothing like cookies and cream. To me, it resembles sand.

¬†After my workout, I drink one of those, and it fills me up just enough so that I don’t over eat during dinner. It works like a charm. But man, it also leaves one awful after taste. It’s like, sand, with a hint of cream. I honestly have no idea what it contains, aha. However, my aunt assures me that it’s good for me. Right.

my workout plan

  • regular workout every week day from 6-7 p.m.
  • morning beginner’s yoga 5-6 a.m. on weekends
  • 30 min jog during the evening on weekends
  • keep track of how much food I’m consuming
  • gonna put more organic foods into my diet

I think that’s pretty dece for now, average. I’m not about to count calories, it’s more about portion sizes. I’m also not about to go completely ‘cold turkey’, baby steps matter. I’m not going to punish myself or feel bad about myself if I occasionally indulge in something I know won’t help me towards my goal. Treating myself is perfectly okay. I don’t eat when I’m depressed, I eat when I’m bored, which obviously, is quite alot. However, I’m going to develop that will power, that inner strength, to stop doing that. I want to get out of this depression I’ve put myself in, and feel happy about myself. It will happen. :)